it's not easy saying you're sorry

if you think that this is easy for me, you're wrong. It has never been easy for me to have any form of hatred in my heart for you. You're the last person I would want to hate in my life.

How did things start anyway? I happen to do some thing without your permission. You hated the fact that I didn't consult with you first so you got very angry. You started saying hurtful words to me and provoked me to reason out. Then, when I've reasoned out, you got more angry to the point of cursing me. After some time, you were still angry you hurt me physically.

Then what do you expect? You're expecting that I will apologize to you so that you wouldn't be mad any more. You're out there telling everyone that I was really bad because of what I did to you. How about what you did to me? Are they even aware of that? You ask for them to pity you, without telling them how cruel you had been to me.

It was, and it will never be easy to have you as an enemy. Anyone who will feel hatred for you will definitely get real bad luck. But then, it's not easy to ask for apology when you are badly hurt. I guess I have to allow my self sometime to heal before saying that I'm sorry.

For now, I can only say sorry to you in my mind. I'm sorry that I didn't know that you'll be reacting this way for something that I did. I didn't anticipate that such a small thing to me can be a big issue to you.

Rest assured, I will not do anything of that kind anymore. I learned my lesson. Not everyone thinks and act the same way as I do. I should accept that no matter how close we are, we are still two different individuals. We both have our flaws, but you're never going to admit that.

Again, I'm sorry. If I can't tell you that I'm sorry as soon as possible, at least I said it through this post. I hope you will forgive me...